Being in a cool-off state is not a reason why i shouldn't acknowledge the 31st month of our relationship. First of all, im never the kind who comes up with cheesycheesy kind of words to let my boyfriend know how much i love him. But this time, i suppose i really need to crack my brains because he has done too much for me & i will never never will be able to do everything that he has done for me. So this is one way i think can at the very least show him how much i appreciate all that he has done for me. I don't know how long im capable of typing, but i know that everything will come from my heart. When someone else sees & read this, they'll think its disgusting, its over, its ridiculous for him to be this great of a boyfriend at such a young age(well at least not yet 20). But no one will ever know how great he is & i can never find someone like him ever.
I thought i wouldnt be able to trust him ever after what he has done but he proved me wrong. He proved to me how much he still treasure & love me, he proved that he's human & makes mistakes but it'll only happen once & never will happen again. I thought maybe we were too young back then to think right about this relationship, i thought maybe we had our own reasons why everything happen. I think im a bad bad person coz he's really the one who will ALWAYS go the extra mile for me, he's the one who will always sacrifice for me. Like by spending the whole day trying hard to get an mc so that he could skip camp for a day & bring me shopping. Like by always trying to cook what i feel like eating although we both know he's a bad cook. Like by always willing to spend his whole pay on me & has never complaint anything even though he doesnt gets anything for himself. Like by making me a happy girl when he brought me to the zoo & the universal studio. Like by accompanying me to ride the mummy twice eventhough he's super afraid of it. Like making me a small kid saying that if i pass & get on to poly, he would get me a school bag & a laptop sleeve(& he really did get me the nixon bagpack eventhough it was very costly, & he says he's going to get me a MBMJ laptop sleeve soon). He puts me ahead of everything else, even when he has plans on that day, he's still willing to put it on hold just to accompany me. Sometimes i feel so bad coz i thought it wasnt right that he makes me his top priority.
He never leaves me alone when i had problems with friends or family or when i had something not right in mind. He's there, always willing to stay up late till night to listen to my complaints, my rants, my curses. He never once complained each time i vent my anger on him. Others may criticise him saying he's not good-looking, he's short but i don't care coz all i know is he's almost perfect in my eyes. He never does complain although sometimes i put my friends ahead of him & forget about him when im out with them. He never does complain when i cancel our date & choose to go out with my friends, instead he'll always ask me to enjoy myself. He never does compare or get fed-up with me when i spend too much time with friends like some other guys who'll show their attitude. He's always patient with me & accepts all my flaws whole-heartedly. Come to think about it, im a very lucky girl to have a guy who never fails to put a smile on my face every morning with his silly morning texts & who never fails to make me laugh when he knows im very angry with him. Than sometimes i hate myself for laughing over his lame jokes. ;/
If i keep on going, i bet i'll just jam this whole blogger.com site. All he needs to know is, I Love Muhammad Irwan Bin Roslan ;) <3