When i was 5, mum asked what i wanted to be when i grow up,
I answered, a cashier.
When i went to primary school, mum asked the same thing,
I answered, a teacher.
When i went to secondary school, mum asked again.
I answered, a lawyer.
Now, mum asked me again. I answered, I don't know mum.
While we're still young, we ought to treasure & make full use of the chances given to us. We ought to treasure time much more, using every single second thinking of what we wanna do in the future. Im trying my best to think hard, REAL hard.

Sometimes when i look at my facebook account, I just feel like deactivating it. HAHA. Coz its getting so boring -.- I don't really know what to do with it anymore aside from updating status/uploading photos(if there is).
Hate busybodies. -.-

Hi. I feel like a failure. I feel like a loser. I feel like a sore loser. Even after the second attempt, im still unable to get the COP of the course i want. I don't know. With just this purely dissapointing results, I don't know what I can do in my life right now. So what if my agg allows me to go for a poly education but at last i'll be studying a course i don't really want? Actually, I don't really know what i want right now, really. SIGHS.
Im not getting any younger, Im already a year older this year. I can't afford to waste more time knowing that my chances are just so-so. I'll just wait for the results of the JAE posting. If I can't really open my heart to that particular course, guess i'll have to think of another way out. One thing for sure, Im not going to take up any private route(I hope). Lets just see, im not sure myself if i wanna go RP. I don't wanna waste another year just to retake 1 freaking subject. What if the same thing happens? No, im no longer willing to take the risk. Im too tired to study like crazy the way i did last year. My hard work for eng & humans definitely paid off well. A little for science & a ZERO for maths. My hardwork for maths totally went down the drain. I feel like crying out loud when i saw the results of my Maths. SIGHS.
God please guide me.

Hi dear. The results are confirmed to be out on monday. I was eating halfway after a long tiring day of cashier-ing/inventory when the news just appeared right before my very eyes. & now i've got no mood to eat. I was thinking, would it be tears of joy? Or tears of sadness? Or tears of regrets? I don't know, i can't really explain my feeling right now. Im tired & I can't stop thinking about my results. I doubt I can do well, or even just to meet the needs of applying for polytechnic. I don't know. When i think about how i studied, i guess i won't really meet my target. When i think about last year, January 10, 2010, the way i broke down & just kept crying, I DON'T KNOW. I feel like killing myself already. I feel like I don't even want to see the results. I feel like I'd rather die than even see the results. You're sleeping right now i guess, you must be feeling very tired especially this week thats filled with rehearsals over & over again. I know you'd just tell me off for thinking too much & for thinking that im sure to flunk again. I hope when you see this post, it'll be on monday after 2pm when everything's over. & i hope when it ends, there'll be a big smile on my face, i pray for that. I feel like crying while typing this, i don't really know why but really. Right now, its only god's will. I believe that everything Allah plans for us is the best & nothing can be better than HIS plans. I believe Allah has HIS reason for doing everything. Im trying to believe that when we have faith, we'll succeed. Im trying to believe that I did my best & I know i can make it. Im trying to believe that my hard work will not go to a waste. Im trying to believe that my sleepless nights will all be worth. Im trying to believe that Allah will give me a chance to succeed this time around. Insyaallah, amin.

Hi, its been so long since i typed out an entry up here. Bf's not doing his job either, its his blog & he should be doing this but nvm -.- So today, first day of a new job. No i mean, same place, same people but a whole new different job. & i love this new job compared to the old one. Wrapping is a misery. -.- So all praises to the almighty that christmas season is over, no more wrapping of BICYCLES & weird shapes. haha.
Can i type it out here about someone i really hate? I hate her ttm. Idk why. I think she's a very kpo person, k maybe i bebual melayu lagi bagus jadi die tak boleh faham KALAU die nmpk post ni pon. Hah. K, die kpo ttm, aku macam nak campak telur busuk pat die. balik negeri tanak, dtg sini nak menyusahkan hidup org. Kau jgn kpo dgn keje aku bleh tak? AHHH very geram -.- Lagi satu kali kau bully _______, tegur mest tegur nye ah. kite keje semue same pe, kau baru die pon baru, kau nak bully die asal? nb. -.-' wo pu xi huan ni, pengyou.
K da cukup. -_________________________________________-

Yeay im superhappygilebabi coz bf's going to pop this weekend! but cannot go his graduation ;( saturday full shift T.T