Hi dear. The results are confirmed to be out on monday. I was eating halfway after a long tiring day of cashier-ing/inventory when the news just appeared right before my very eyes. & now i've got no mood to eat. I was thinking, would it be tears of joy? Or tears of sadness? Or tears of regrets? I don't know, i can't really explain my feeling right now. Im tired & I can't stop thinking about my results. I doubt I can do well, or even just to meet the needs of applying for polytechnic. I don't know. When i think about how i studied, i guess i won't really meet my target. When i think about last year, January 10, 2010, the way i broke down & just kept crying, I DON'T KNOW. I feel like killing myself already. I feel like I don't even want to see the results. I feel like I'd rather die than even see the results. You're sleeping right now i guess, you must be feeling very tired especially this week thats filled with rehearsals over & over again. I know you'd just tell me off for thinking too much & for thinking that im sure to flunk again. I hope when you see this post, it'll be on monday after 2pm when everything's over. & i hope when it ends, there'll be a big smile on my face, i pray for that. I feel like crying while typing this, i don't really know why but really. Right now, its only god's will. I believe that everything Allah plans for us is the best & nothing can be better than HIS plans. I believe Allah has HIS reason for doing everything. Im trying to believe that when we have faith, we'll succeed. Im trying to believe that I did my best & I know i can make it. Im trying to believe that my hard work will not go to a waste. Im trying to believe that my sleepless nights will all be worth. Im trying to believe that Allah will give me a chance to succeed this time around. Insyaallah, amin.